What kind of world do you want?

I love John Ondrasik. There is nothing musically in my mind that he could do wrong. I love his band (basically anyone who plays on his recordings), I love his songs, I own all four albums he’s released since his debut in 1997 with Message for Albert and I think he’s one of my generation’s best songwriters. His songs are topical, personal and catchy all at the same time. He’s made me cry, he’s made me think and he makes me want to be a better songwriter.

His latest release, Two Lights, (August 2006) is no exception. Starting with the above - mentioned song “World” he dives in and gives a look inside his head and what he thinks of the mess we’ve all made of this world and how we can change it. It’s an interesting and deeply existential question to pose and it reminds us that change starts at home.

As on his previous releases the topics of Two Lights vary - love, family, cops, a 65 Mustang - and have something to offer anyone who listens. If you aren’t a fan yet – you should be. While I really like Two Lights I recommend you start with my favourite CD of his, The Battle For Everything, and go from there. www.fiveforfighting.com and www.myspace.com/fiveforfighting

It’s Sunday as I write this – a nice lazy Sunday save for my gut wrenching trip to the gym to undo all the badness I ate and all the miles I didn’t run while I was back east for the last two weeks. I’ve been back for a few days and my brain is still a little fuzzy, my eating schedule is still three hours off and I’m falling asleep way too early to do anyone any good. But it’s par for the course for me when I go back for more than a weekend and at least I can handle it – though I do feel sorry for anyone around me who has to engage me for more than 5 ½ seconds in these first few days.

I had a blast! The first weekend I helped celebrate my niece’s fourth birthday by playing grill chef at her party (I don’t eat red meat but managed to cook more hamburgers in one day than I’ve probably eaten in my short lifetime), and I got up to Western Massachusetts with my sis, niece, and Fritz to see our friend Lauren and her daughter Catherine (and yes I got to drive Lauren’s new Mini – awesome!).

Last weekend my sister and I drove up to Newburyport, Massachusetts to see some other old friends/family and then on up to Maine to see one of my best friends, Amanda and her wife Rosemary at their new lake cabin. It was great to see all these folks over the course of my two weeks – people I consider to be family and people for whom I would do anything.

The many miles we traveled flew by and at the same time managed to get my feet on the ground. It felt great to be in my old haunts (I once did an archeological dig in Newburyport, and was a camp counselor in Maine one summer – to say nothing of an ex and my many shopping runs to L.L. Bean, and our lunches in Freeport) and it felt great to eat some real lobster and other seafood that simply taste better because they come from the Atlantic. In between weekends I worked on my sister’s house painting her doors and building a garden for her. It was hard work but I was justly compensated by the slab of ice cream cake left over and the time I got to spend with her and Cate.

I needed this trip as I contemplate my future and wonder where I should be and where I should go. I am very strongly pulled by my family and family of friends to head back east and start all over with a new old life. I am also very torn. I have a good life here in West Hollywood, someone I love, and a life we share that would be either enhanced by moving back or troubled. It’s so hard to say and so hard to know. Ultimately though, I know it comes down to one question: What kind of world do I want?

Thanks for tuning in…Until next Monday…CHEERS!!

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